Homecoming

I'm back in New York City. I've been back since last Friday. I feel more alone than I've ever felt.

That's how I started this post the other day. I don't really have much to add today. I am a jumble of emotions, but without words to express them.

Tomorrow I start at my old job. I feel very uneasy about it. My old boss has been too terse about specifics for my liking. I need an income, or I won't be able to move forward with the plans that are in the works. I'm not stupid. I've sent out my resume to other jobs that would pay more than I'm sure my old boss would be able to pay me for much the same work. I've also got a very long list of places that aren't specifically hiring but in my line of work. DP wasn't hiring when I sent them my resume, and they made a position for me that survived the pre-emptive layoffs.

Times are tough, but I've crossed the point of no return. There's no turning back now.