People often misunderstand what I mean when I say I feel alone. There's a huge difference between alone and lonely. I guess that's why I often use the term "disconnected" when I want to say that I feel alone. The difference is when you feel lonely you still have yourself, and when I feel alone I don't even feel like I have that.
I'm sitting here on the floor in my living room. Across from me my refrigerator shakes to life as the compressor kicks in, droning as it works. The only other sounds are my fingers hitting the keys and the occasional stray noises from outside my four walls.
I'm trying to remember something I've forgotten about myself over the years. It feels so close, but I just can't seem to grasp it.
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My God it's like we're breathing the same air right now, I remember the lyrics of a Bush song in the 90's..."I'm never alone, alone all the time" that's how I feel a lot lately. As I sit typing about to pour into another blog,I hear the gentle whir of the vent next to my sockless feet seeking refuge in my long denim pants for warmth, and I wonder how the perfect tingly butterflies of my youth managed to crawl back into cocoons...what will the become this time? I'm rambling, sorry. I don't know what my point is really, except I can relate.
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